12:43 AM - July 18, 2010
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past,stop planning the future, stop trying to decide with our minds exactly what we want our hearts to feel.. Sometimes we just have to love without barriers, break free and enjoy life's unpredictable ride. <3
today the monks came by my house for a blessing ceremony. i am blessed. :) ex bff wedding was today...i wasnt invited of course (but i dont care, ha) anywhos , i haven been replying much to that little slick player wanna be. Ugh , what did I see in you!? like srsly....well im happily fine with my real bff's and him. he gets on my last nerves sometimes, but at the same time i cant stay mad. ahhh and summer schools almost over. about a week and a half then im doneeee whoa things are picking up pace! well, im tired of typing now and i prb made so much typos maybe....whatevs, nighty xox
1:27 a.m. - July 5, 2010
Every July 4th
Nothing ever goes right. Always one disappointment after the other. But I can honestly say this year has been by far the most disappointing. To the point I'm pissed off at a friend. All I want a one year to just chill and watch fucking fireworks. That's all...like really THATS ALL. But no, things and people always wanna rain on my parade. Smh. Just me, a few friends at the beach watching fireworks...but no I guess that's TOO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK. Good fucking night.
11:20 p.m. - July 2,2010
If you dont know where your heart is, look where your mid wanders..
5:50 p.m. - june 28, 2010
reality check .
When I feel the urge to text you that I'm missing you, I consciously remind myself why I stopped us the first place. I've been stuck in stupid for you too long and you're not worth the wait.
Besides, its someone out there who loves me more than ever. More than I thought anyone could ever love me. I wouldn't have known that being with you, 'cause you didn't love me at all- you just loved my appearance.
11:46 p.m. - JUNE 17, 2010
FEELS LIKE: MY LIFES GOING FAST FORWARD WHILE IM STUCK ON REG MOTION.
I longed for something so fraudulent. Deceptive. And I end up being longed, loved and adored by such a warm heart. My best friend. My one call and he's there. The one who I can't stand but love to can't stand (if that even makes sense)!
Summer school starts at the end of June up until the end of July? I just want to get my life straight.
College in the fail. Must start financial aid and placement test ASAP. Plus driver license appt VERY SOON. . man its just so much crap going on. Finally 18 and I feel like I'm getting all of the responsibilities of one but not receiving to fun end of deal. kinda.
Ps hpbd to my best friend for over 10 years. Not even sure where er stand actually.. eh
Night xo
